Parallel Thought: Rukia's Fall after facing Noveno Espada

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My thoughts when thinking about the Ichigo vs. Grand Fisher Hollow compared to the Rukia vs. Noveno Espada/Kaien Hollow.

*Spoilers up to the Hueco Mundo arc*

I was just re-reading the chapters in the HM arc about Rukia battle against the Noveno Espada and how she has been the character with the most development in this arc with saving Orihime (As Ichi has failed and so has many other characters). I just loved it seeing Kaien and that heart-warming memory that Rukia remembered when she was peirced by Kaien's zanpakutou that finally made her get over her guilt to finally save Kaien's body (as to her, it'll never be Kaien since he had passed his heart with the bonds he had made with her and others to her). Then it reminded me about how the whole event was a 'memory in the rain' just like Ichigo's 'memory in the rain' of his mother being killed also by a hollow. Of course, Ichigo wanted to kill the hollow back to that early arc but just couldn't. Rukia was trying to stop him, and he fell forward, and she caught him. Not only was this a very romantic or shoujo moment in a shounen manga, but it showed how Rukia and Ichigo will block out everything else when they see or talk to each other (Rukia had ignored Kon while healing Ichigo with his head on her lap).
This is almost completely parallel to Rukia's fight against the Noveno Espada except for a few details:

• The Espada had the actual body and memory of Kaien, and used it to fool Rukia and stop her from trying to hurt him even when she found he was an Espada. The hollow re-created the image of his mother in the middle of their fight by looking into Ichigo's memories.
  
• Rukia managed to kill the Espada, unlike Ichigo where the hollow ran away.

• Rukia was still very guilty about her killing of Kaien, so much she said she would let him kill her if it wasn't for her wanting to go save Orihime. Ichigo wasn't going to let himself die since he knew by then it really wasn't her even though he still delayed attacks at the hollow. He was also protecting his family from the hollow. 
  

And one very large difference between the two: Rukia was there to catch Ichigo falling- but Rukia fell with no one to catch her. Ichigo was somewhere else getting closer to saving Orihime. The biggest difference between how the two faced their guilts was the difference of support. Ichigo had Rukia to be a partner, to help him and show he can rely on her. Rukia took Kaien on by herself, although she didn't know this when she told Ichigo she didn't need protecting (which is somewhat similiar to Ichigo telling her he wanted to fight Grand Fisher on his own), but Ichigo wasn't there to be a partner and help her when she finished the Espada. He also didn't see her sturggle like she had to do while she restrained herself to help him as he was fighting for pride- just like what Rukia did. Of course, the circumstances were completely different- they were there to save Orihime, that was part of the reason why Rukia tried to keep going, and why she couldn't die yet. And also Ichigo's proctectiveness towards Rukia and his nakama- he almost went to save Rukia when he heard she was dead- almost like wanting to stop her fall like she did for him although he wouldn't think about it like that- he just wanted to protect her and save her as someone 'more than just a nakama'.
Another good thing why Ichigo shouldn't be there or didn't go save her was it probably wouldn't be what Rukia wanted at all- she had told him she didn't need protection from everything, and when they were there to saved Orihime- her lecture to him outside of Las Noches would've seemed to have been useless if he came to save her like he didn't believe in her abilities. She could be like how Ichigo was when Rukia was healing him- but he wouldn't have been able to heal her- it was the point where he failed to protect anyone, he would just be useless and Kubo would never have him waste time like that even for Ichiruki while his fights were much better for fighting against Grimmjaw and Nnoitra (although it was just terrible for character developement). This was all my thoughts on the two parallels. Although I was somewhat dissapointed seeing Ichigo wasn't there to support Rukia after her fight, but then it really wouldn't have been good except for fanservice. 
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This was really been floating in my mind for a while now, I so decided to start typing it down, and this whole thing came out. I understood how many Ichiruki shippers had been angry Ichigo didn't go save Rukia, but really what I've typed down explains although it would maked shippers happy, it just wouldn't actually help to the story.
I feel a little anxious to post this because I'm worried it sounds messed up, unorganized, or people just wouldn't understand what I was ranting about, sorry!
Finally came back home from visiting family- I wished there was a Bleach chapter last week.